Yes, that familiar fork in the road where you have to choose only one path.
The dilemma is never choosing between a good choice and a bad choice. Whenever faced with that question, we can easily pick one. The dilemma lies when you have to choose between two good options, two sound choices.
So, which one?
I make plans. That’s what I do. As a teacher, planning is a skill I have mastered so well I use it in every aspect of my life — including my relationship with Jesus. I had lofty dreams for Him; big plans of what I can accomplish for Him.
I was deep into my own ‘logic’ I couldn’t see Him waving frantically for me to take a detour.
So I arrived at this fork in the road — this fork between two good options, two sound choices.
And I blindly chose my dreams, my plans for Him.
Altogether ignoring the Man I wanted to please, I went straight into the trap of my own big Jesus plans. I became in bondage to the good things that I wanted so desperately to do for Him. I became in bondage to my reasonable wants for Him.
Sadly, because of my ‘good intentions’, I disobeyed Him. Unknowingly, yet deliberately, disobeyed Him.
I had the faintest hint in my heart that I was being stubborn. I buried His voice in piles of reasons and justifications for why He is better off with my plans. You see, I was declaring to Jesus that I know this world more intimately than He does.
Still, He loves me so much to let me go on. He had to crush my dreams and exhibit to me I was heading the wrong path.
Reeling from the devastation of broken dreams and plans, I fell on my knees and cried to Him. From that moment on, He started rebuilding me into this new person — the promised Kezia. I began to see that what I had been furiously weaving for Him and for my life is nothing compared to the plans and dreams He has for His kingdom, for me, and for all His children.
A few weeks ago, we began studying Philippians. Then we arrived at verses nine and ten of chapter one.
9 And this is my prayer: that your love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight, 10 so that you may be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless until the day of Christ (Phil 1:9-10)
I was struck and reminded that Jesus wants me to discern what is best, to discern the best choice, to discern the God choice. That, as my love abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight, I may be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless until the day of Christ.
He has bigger plans. Better plans. They are more than I could ever come up with. He is inviting His children — me — to join Him in the work He is doing.
It is not wrong to make plans or to dream dreams, but the danger lies when they cloud the vision He has for you to reach. The danger lies when they take the position in your heart that is supposed be His.
Plans are good things. Dreams are good things.
But God wants the best things for you.
So be ready for lots of detours, plans going south, and dreams getting scattered into pieces; because at many instances in your walk with Him, He will ask you to choose Him over many good things in your life.
For in Him awaits the best things beyond what you can conceive on your own.
Father, remove whatever is keeping us blind from Your activities around us and within us. May we have Your desires, Your plans, Your dreams. Let our lives be fully engulfed and grasped by You. Be so strong in us that we cannot help but radically pursue You until our last breath. And Father, may we always choose the best choice, Your choice, whenever we face that fork in the road between good options. In the glorious and mighty name of Jesus, I pray. Amen.
July 28, 2013
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